Falling Apart Or Falling Into Place?

Our first day at church was great.  We had already met a few members when we first arrived because they had helped us move our stuff into our rental home.  But as we met the rest of the members, it just felt nice.  Everyone was so friendly and  you could tell by their attitudes towards us, as well as some things that were mentioned, that they were looking forward to us being there.

( Ouside of the church building)

(Our Ruger "bunny" next to the  "church" bunnies)

They especially were excited to have some more youth in the ward.  It made us feel all the more worse when we found out that the  job was cancelled.

Yep, the Church had decided that the project was too expensive.  When David told me, I was smiling as I asked him if he was joking.  I was smiling because it would just add to the bad luck or whatever you wanted to call all that had happened so far, but I was also smiling because I wanted it to be true!

Canada was expensive.  I worried about Levi learning how to drive in a foreign country.  I worried about the boys in a foreign school.  Our house was way to small for our family of six. And there was more that I just don't want to write about.

So honestly, I was more relieved than mad at the fact that we had just moved to a foreign country for nothing!

Even though we needed to tell the boys, we didn't trust the situation.  I mean , look at all that had happened to us in just a weeks time.  So we decided to wait 24 hours just to make sure.  

So the following day, we sat the boys down to tell them.  Levi was the only one who was ok to stay or leave.  Everyone else was more than happy to leave.  I feel bad that they won't have a better experience with Canada and I want them to understand that "Canada" is not what we experienced, but I'm also glad that they want to go back.

But just like everything else that has happened, it changed within minutes.  Not 5 minutes had passed after telling them and David gets a phone call that the project is back on but on a smaller scale.  I have to admit that if they would have told us that we HAD to stay that I would have been mad!  But after David told them that we had already told our kids that we were going back and the company was ok with that, well, I was just happy because dang it, we are going back to Utah!

Since then it has been a rush of things like repacking, finding a place to live in Utah, getting help with stuff and so much more.  I have cried, I have stressed, I have questioned the reasoning of things but I can say that as always, David has calmed me in all of this.  That is one thing that I can say that I'm grateful for in all of this.  Once again, I am reminded that I could not do any of this without him.  Without his calming abilities I could be falling apart.  But instead, I pray things are just falling into place.