Something bad that comes from waiting too long to journal something is that you forget details. I'm kinda irritated with myself with that right now. But I will do the best I can with remembering.
Part of the reason I didn't journal this earlier is because it is extremely personal. I wrote part of this experience to my parents around Thanksgiving of last year and I printed it off and will just put it in our home. Still not comfortable with sharing all the details on our blog. Just know that this summer was extremely hard on our family financially and I found myself pulling away from a lot of things. But right around Thanksgiving I had a revelation that made me realize that the Lord's hand was in it all along. I will share one part of that letter I wrote my parents:
"I hadn’t considered
that maybe all that the Lord had helped us with in the summer (financially) was truly a
miracle. I mean a miracle that only
could be paid because of Him only. Maybe
that is why we are making more money now and yet still are barely holding
on. He was making those “payments” that
we couldn’t pay. So I shouldn’t be
looking at it as if we were being ripped off.
He was the only reason we made it through the summer. I had to learn that lesson in order for me to
see that when I got this job and would be able to bring money in our home, that
THAT would be what would make ends meet in the real world without the Lord’s
help."
It was truly a great learning experience for me of tithing. Even after getting a job once school started, we were barely hanging on. Nothing had changed financially. But that is when the revelation finally came. He HAD been helping us all along and I have no doubt it is because of faithfully paying tithing.
Fast forward to December 3 when precious baby boy came into our lives. This is where the details get a little fuzzy because I didn't write it down but I know that right before little guy came into our lives that David's Dad had been trying to encourage us to pay tithing in a different way. It was a way that would cost us more money and I fought the idea. Finally, I gave in. I wish I could say I did it more happily but really I was just following my husband's guidance. And then the miracles started to happen.
All within a week our precious baby R came to live with us, David got a raise, and a headhunter contacted David (mind you, David was not looking for a job. They found him!) about this job with CenterCal that he is now working for.
I do not believe for a second that this was all a coincidence. I am truly grateful for Steve's guidance in having a different type of faith in tithing as well as the Lord being patient with me and not giving up. We are being financially blessed now as well as have a new found testimony of tithing.
